Wednesday, July 26, 2006

"Are my pickles too loud?"

The first star I see may not be a star -
I can't do a thing but wait,
So let's wait for one more.

And the time, such clumsy time,
In deciding if it's time.
I'm careful but not sure how it goes.
You can lose yourself in your courage.

When the time we have now ends,
And when the big hand goes around again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

And the mindless comfort grows
When I'm alone with my 'great' plans.
This is what she said gets her through it
'If I don't let myself be happy now, then when? If not now when?'

When the time we have now ends,
And when the big hand goes around again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

I close my eyes and believe
That wherever you are, an angel for me.

When the time we have now ends,
And when the big hand goes around again,
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

That's all.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

"Stay away from the Village, People"

Pretty crazy night. I finally watched The Village, and I really think I like it a lot. I really wish I would've watched it, for the first time, at least, in a theater, where there would be, ideally, considerably fewer distractions. It was pretty tough to stay 'caught up' in it, given the goings-on of the apartment. But I really think I like it anyways.

Mostly, I think what stuck with me was 1) the love story - how Lucius and Ivy related with each other, along with what they did for each other, 2) the cinematography - the emotional build-up of a couple of key scenes, along with the themes they had in there (mostly their holding hands, reaching, etc.), and 3) the moral questions of the way the elders ran the village and why, etc.


Besides finding a movie that I think I'll have to own, at least at some point, I had a pleasantly exciting night in that I got asked on two dates during the course of the evening (both upon returning phone calls that I received during the movie - the lesson? . . .). Gratefully, the dates of the dates didn't conflict with one another or with anything I have/had planned for the coming weekends. Neither invitation was what I would call 'expected,' but both are from girls I would have liked to ask out, and probably would have, at least eventually . . .

Anyways, I guess it's not something that happens every day, so I felt to share it. Thank you.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

My latest question in the dating game

So, I was thinking how it's funny that my latest posts have been asking questions for others to respond to. I guess that's just because I think 'my readers' are more interested in being involved in a conversation about my life than they would be in just hearing about it . . . That said:

The latest question is one for the coming weekend, but it happens to have my interest generally at the moment as well. Here's the deal: I really, really am interested in this girl - we'll call her 'Emily,' for short . . . Anyways, say I've asked her out a few times lately, and I've seen her the last couple of weekends (and I'm just really impressed with who she is). Also, she's from Salt Lake, so she has to drive down to Provo (if that's where it is that I am to see her, I guess - and as I don't exactly drive . . .) - but then, she drives down every day for work and/or school anyways, so my impression is that it's not a huge deal for her to make the drive.

Anyways, the dilemma I'm having is this: my roommate and I are planning a double date, and in thinking of anyone I'd kind of like to ask out, I find myself coming back to Emily in terms of who I would most like to do those things with. Now, that's not a problem in itself, of course. And I wouldn't have any problem with spending that time with her. But I don't know, with the few times we've been together, exactly how interested Emily is in me in the whole dating sense. So I hate to monopolize her (weekend) time if she's just not that interested. (I don't say that with any premonition or observation that she's not interested; I'm just trying to be reasonable and fair, given the amount of time (+/- 1 month) we've known each other.)

But then, there's the argument that she's perfectly capable of either telling me she's not interested or making up a good excuse as to why she's not available this (or any other) weekend. With that in mind, I would be inclined to just keep asking her out until she gives a definitive 'not interested' sign of some kind.

But the reason I'm asking the question is this: say we're both (at least) a little interested in each other. Even so, I think it would be 'inappropriate,' in one way or another, to call her up and expect to hang out every day. It would be unnecessary and excessive and probably just annoying - and probably not exactly healthy. I'm really not interested in doing that. But where do you draw the line? Is every weekend too much? Or does it just depend on the situation?

Now, in writing this, I realize how silly it sounds to me because I'm really not all that concerned with overanalyzing the reality of the situation to see what I 'should' do. I think I'll take another five minutes or so to decide whether I really, really want to see her or whether I think it would be good to back off just a little bit and ask out some other girl. Hmm.

Basically, then, I just want some validation of my ideas - does my concern make sense? Is it totally unreasonable? Or is it just something to have in mind, but not something that should be a major factor in the dating game?